Poem: matter over mind

My mind is racing
Disguised by a smile
My heart is racing
But I'm in denial.

I can't let them see
This feeling inside
This panic rising
I've got to hide

To all I look calm
But they don't know
The thoughts in my head
I won't let them show

I search for a reason
But there is none
I take a deep breath
And try to have fun

I know it is silly
I tell it to go away
That I'm fine, happy
What more can I say

Then I'm angry
So close my eyes
Then I tell myself
The worries are lies

I am not gonna let
The anxiety rule
I open my eyes
And stand up tall

I am in control
This here is my skin
I am gonna be strong
Anxiety will not win!